The Struggle

The struggle is still on...the struggle to find inner peace as i come to grips with the reality that i can't always get what i think i need. As i come to grips with the reality that i can't have who i need. So he's the first thing on your mind in the mornings and the last when you go to bed...so what? You will get over him....................eventually...........you have to.................you have no choice in the matter................so even though reality sucks.............the world of fantasies never disappoint..........so smile for a new twisted beginning...:)

And here is where it has all began...

So this is how it ends by way of how it begins....i haven't been here for a while but i guess i could say i have a good reason...

Said I wouldn't....

So I said i wouldn't fall but i did....and its worst than any motherfucking pain you can think about....

Secrets

"The thing people forget is how good it can feel when you set secrets free. Whether good or bad at least they're out in the open like it or not. And once your secret is out, there is no need to hide behind them any more. The problem with secrets is, even when you think you are in control, You really aren't"- Meredith, Greys Anatomy

Birthday!!! or Birthday???

So i hate birthdays...well... my birthday...i don't know why...but i do...i like other people's birthday...maybe because the attention is not placed on me...what do you think?

The only Woman in my life!!!

So i finally got my puppy. Her name is Triskey and she is a ball of fire... the connection i share with her is like no other i love her so much. She is playful and fun. Always full of life and energy. :)

I got an Inspiration!!!

So i got a inspiration but what is it about u might ask? Frankly i dont know. i am trying, i really am but it all doesnt make sense...i may as well let it go...i may as well give up. so wat am i to do. Do i adapt or die? As many times as we've heard it, the lesson doesn't get easier. The problem is we're human. We want more than just to survive. We want love. We want success. We want to be the best that we can be. So, we fight like hell to get those things. Anything else feels like death.